silence

for the past 5 months I have been living in silence. I have no idea where my life is going from here. during my time at loma linda I have had amazing experiences- i’ve even traveled to honduras for missions trip but somehow i am caught up in this silence. it is april. soon i will need to make solid decisions about my future and about the peace corps. is this something i really want to do? or not? do i seek another opportunity? or not? the comfort that the educational system has provided me all my life is about to stripped from me in in less than 9 months. where do i go from here? how do i handle my finances? should i plan for a future with someone? or not? these are the questions that have become nothing but bright neon signs in my head at every moment of everyday. and i continue to pray and seek direction. but all i hear right now, is silence…